I Will Continue to Love you While You’re Hiding

Dear one, I can see you hiding.

I can see you, I know you don’t think I can. I know you think that you’re invisible. That you’re just a drop in the ocean, your struggles, fears, dreams and desires completely insignificant.

I can see you hiding your emotions everytime you change the subject to something less confronting. I see you hiding your self worth when you subtly put yourself down as you speak. I see you hiding your body shame while you try to shrink beneath your clothes.
I see hiding behind your Instagram scroll, constantly, invisibly, comparing yourself.
I see you hiding from the truth that you are not in fact okay.
I see you silencing the part of yourself that believes you might be more.
I see you.
And I am loving you while you hide.

I see you because I know. I know that the truth is a scary mother fucker.

I know this because I was once like you. Doing a really good job at hiding.
I was so good at it, that I didn’t even know I was hiding.

I had to hit rock fucking bottom to realise that I was hiding myself so intently that I had almost forgotten who I was.

I had to claw my way back to myself, my true self, and it was the most painful, epic journey I have ever embarked on.

And you know what made it possible… Do you know how I came out from my Rupture and into my Radiance?

People. People made it possible.

When I was hiding, people kept showing up in my life inviting me to come out of my hiding, and into my truth. And if I wasn’t ready, they kept loving me while I was hiding.

It is no accident that you clicked onto this article. Your soul wanted you to hear this from me.

You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the whole fucking ocean.

And if you don’t believe that right now, that is okay, because I will keep loving you while you hide.

I will. This is not some reverse psychology trick, it’s the truth. Hiding is fucking painful, and when we are in pain we need, more than ever, to be loved.

And so that is what I am offering you with these words; 

You are loved exactly as you are. 

Exactly where you are. 

In exactly the body you are in. 

In exactly the mental state you are in. 

In exactly the geographic location you are in. Exactly as you are, you are loved.

You don’t have to do anything, be anything, go anywhere - all I invite you to know, to feel, with your heart, is that you are loved while you hide.

While you are feeling that love, I invite you to ask yourself if you can accept the fact: that you are hiding. Whether from fear, shame, comparison, whatever -- can you accept that you are actively hiding?

Acceptance is a portal to healing. Maybe you can accept it, and maybe you need more time - you are loved either way.

But if you can accept this, then.... some day, when the part of you that wants to know more, to be more, to take up more space, has a little more power, I invite that Empowered part of you to take a peek out from the place from which you are hiding.

And if the Empowered part feels it is safe, I invite it to come out and do something it knows is good for you. Be it dancing, singing, dating, cooking, buying vibrant new clothes, using your dildo. Whatever the Empowered part defines is your medicine, do it.

And then, if the Empowered part is getting stronger, which it usually does when we let it dictate our actions, I invite it to begin making connections.

Connections with other people's Empowered parts. This might mean you need to connect with new people, for the regular people in your life may not yet know empowerment. It may mean you need to take up a new hobby, like rock-climbing, painting lessons. It may mean buying tickets to events where other Empowered parts meet; like womxn circles, ecstatic dances, festivals, classes.

If you do these three things: Accept your hiding, Make space for your Empowered part, Connect with other Empowered parts - then I have a secret to tell you:
You are not hiding anymore.

You’re in it. Welcome.



I see you hiding, and I love you, and I'm here, if ever the Empowered part of you wants to meet me, reach out, let’s dance. 

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XX Chloe Adriana - Radical Radiance Coach