Learning to trust the masculine and money
This weekend I attended a mystery school.
What on earth is a mystery school you ask…
Well, by its very nature I can't really tell you ;)
Each mystery school has guiding principles, values and spiritual teachings which it bases its practices around.
To be honest, most of the workshops and training I offer are very mystery based - I just tend not to use that language as people find it woo woo and can be scared off…
Yet, if you stick around my mailing list long enough you'll know I'm actually a wild celtic fairy witch who loves magick and mystery.
The focus of the training I attended this weekend was learning how to align our consciousness, soul and the void with our deepest desires - particularly focusing on wealth and relationships.
This year I have been unearthing a pattern that weaves through my relationship with the masculine and with money.
The story I've been carrying in my subconscious goes a little like this:
I don't trust the masculine to hold me. I don't trust money to hold me.
I don't trust myself to hold the masculine. I don't trust myself to hold money.
It has become clear to see how this hidden narrative has been dictating so many aspects of my life.
As I hone in on these stories, chipping away at them like marble, carefully carving out new stories, I have felt things in my external world start to shift…
Just a few weeks ago I ended my relationship with a beautiful lover I've been dating this year.
Our relationship was intense. Karmic.
Inside the relationship, for the first time in my life, I was able to really meet the parts of me that self sabotage, push away, make wrong and play the victim in relationship with the masculine.
It was uncomfortable, it was ugly, but it was real.
And I was ready to face it, to change it.
Finally being able to meet these shadow parts of myself actually allowed our love to blossom throughout our short karmic relationship.
But it was listening to my own inner-masculine, who told me that this relationship was heading down a road that didn't serve me, which allowed me to let go.
It is my coming to understand money as a transpersonal entity that wants to support me, that has allowed me to start to let wealth come into, and stay in my life.
As I dance the human dance of relationships, of inner and outer work - there are three things that anchor me:
The body. Love. And pleasure.
Last week I made a free somatic practice called Regulating Emotions Through Pleasure
Maybe you are disconnected from the emotions that are trying to be spoken through your bodies,
Disconnected from the wisdom that life is trying to deliver you.
Disconnected from the pleasure that lives inside of you.
From the pleasure that supports us to come back into the present moment.
From the love that is always waiting to greet you at the front door.
I have used this somatic practice everyday since I made it.
Today, it is my gift to you <3
Download it here for free